Roller coaster of life

We're always told that life is like a roller coaster, it has its ups and downs. But I don't think I ever realised how high up or how low life could really go until I was diagnosed with Cushing's. In the grand scheme of things I can't really complain as I'm still here, still living and breathing. But to be honest I wouldn't mind having a go on the merry-go-round for a while. The wooden horses only go up and down a little but mostly go round and round in circles. Sure it would get boring, but the slower pace would be nice once in a while.

I guess it just seems like since I've been suffering from Cushing's things go from one extreme to the other! And I'm not just referring to my mood swings...

Just a few days ago I was ecstatic because I found out that I'd not only completed my Masters, but I'd gotten 9 As and only 2 Bs meaning I would be awarded a mark of Distinction. And today, I find out that my Cushing's recurrence has been confirmed. I failed to suppress on both the low dose and high dose dexamethasone tests. It was such a crushing thing to hear. Sure I was somewhat prepared but still... You always hold out hope...