I'm realistic, I know the odds are against me and I'm likely to suffer from some pituitary damage and loss of hormone function, but the thought of getting some of my life back keeps me strong. My mum is arriving this evening and she'll be here for 6 weeks to help with my recovery. I'm grateful to have the support of my friends and family, and feel blessed to be alive and loved. I'm also really happy that Pepper (my retired greyhound) will be here to help keep me motivated during those long weeks when I feel terrible and all I want to do is sleep.
I've decided I want to document this time better than the last. In 2010, I took a few photos here and there but didn't keep a strict journal. This time I'm gonna do it right! Take a photo of my face every day over the next few months so I can really see the changes. When you see yourself in the mirror every day it's hard to notice and you sometimes feel defeated. This way I'll have photographic evidence!
If I'm bold enough I might also take full body shots. Don't worry, they'll be fully clothed...
On a positive note, the last few nights I've been having dreams in which I'm back to my normal size. I'm taking it as a sign that I will soon be able to find clothes that fit me on the high street and begin exercising again! This year I AM making New Year's resolutions and they're gonna be the typical diet and exercise ones but at least this year they might work...
