The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it.

Today I had nothing much to do so I decided to update my blog. Reading through it I realised that it was time for me to edit some of the pages in order to reflect my new situation (i.e. post-op). I have to admit, it was strange having to change some of the verbs to the past tense. Changing sentences from: I get debilitating migraines to I had debilitating migraines, makes me realise how far I’ve come.

In fact, I’m sure if I read through everything I’ve posted so far I would realise what a change a year makes, but to be honest, I don’t think I even need to do that!

Aside from the fact that it would take too long (I really have posted quite a lot in the last year!), the past is still so fresh in my mind that I don’t feel the need to read everything again. I think it is quite obvious by what I said in my last post about how I’m still very sensitive about what I’ve been through and everything I’ve achieved.

But as my blog title states (thank you coolnsmart.com for the quote) I am learning from my past and preparing for the future. I am grateful to still be here in the present and I intend to live it the best way that I can.

Actually, on Saturday I attended Jesus Lifehouse Church, an “extension” of the Hillsong church, here in Hong Kong and I felt like the message was very much aimed at me again. Though I was unable to hear the entire preach because I had to leave early, I got the majority of it. It was based on the following passage: For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. (Timothy 1:17; NLT).

The pastor reminded us that we often shy away from our full potential because of fear and our most common fears are: Fear of Failure, Fear of the unknown and Fear of what others think.

I very much agree with this and feel like fear has held me back long enough. My aim is to no longer be afraid and enjoy my life. That is not to say that I want to live carelessly or without caution, it just means that as a way of living in the present, I have to stop fearing the past or future.